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Thursday, March 31st, 2005
2:08 am	WWW.XANGA.COM/NEVERXAFRAID CHECK THAT SHIT OUT, BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS DUMB (Comment on this)
Friday, March 18th, 2005
5:29 am	i never fucking update i dont work at ballys anymore...i quit my job to go on tour...tour is fucking great...but i'm an idiot...i love my friends and my family Current Mood: tired Current Music: national geographic (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 26th, 2004
1:33 am	FUCK!!! I NEVER POST IN THIS THING ANYMORE BECAUSE MY COMPUTER DOESN'T WORK, i work at a bally total fitness now, but who knows for how long...weird..who knows, merry christmas. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: bad (Comment on this)
Friday, October 8th, 2004
12:09 am	i haven't posted in a long time because my computer is broken, so for an update, i work at ballys and life is unbelievable haha. awesome. peace. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Battle Royale (Comment on this)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
11:27 pm	HI! I'M A WAITER AT RUBY TUESDAYS, FUCK YEAH. i really want madden 2005, its all i think about Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Dead Stop (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 5th, 2004
3:32 am	tonight was completely rediculous ok, swimming and BBQ and shumakers..fuckin rad....fruit stew nigga....after that got some DQ Mystery Mistys, then to some ultra rich sluts house, and shot off tons of fireworks, total banger. The Uphill Downhill wars were fucking incredible, so dangerous, easily the most unsafe game you can play. ate brownies and cheese cubes. then we got kicked out because steve shot the rich sluts father with a firework in the foot? then we went into some new developement and shot bottlerockets at each other for like an hour, i hit danpunk in the stomach. and was killing errybody else. fuck yeah. ok then went over to robsons house. and there were these weird sluts from N. Royalton trying to be friends? man too many people introducing themselves today, and what they dont get understand, is that i seriously couldn't give a fuck. ok but then Robson, Gant, Zinzer, and jason all went out for food? where gant talked shit to some kid, and they wanted to fight him. so they call me, and i'm still at Robson's house, and we all meet at mcdonalds, and a bunch of our friends show up, so there's like 5 cars of us, and one car of these kids. And for some reason we follow them to these ghetto ass apartments where it would be "safe" to fight. we pulled in and there's like seriously 75-100 people waiting outside for us. and immediately 3/5 of our friends ditch us. so they all surround us, and a bunch of ghetto shit talking, and Eldrige gets starts fighting some of them because they smashed out Zinzer's window. bottom line nothing really happened except for Eldrige fighting his way out of like 50 nigs. gangster. happy 4th of july Current Mood: tired Current Music: Metallica (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 10th, 2004
2:37 pm	dont be mad its just jokes because i'm jealous and i play bass for "names for graves" Current Mood: nerdy Current Music: names for graves (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
4:11 am	YOUTH OF TODAY i saw youth of today, for like 30 minutes i didn't give a fuck about anything besides having fun, it was awesome, i wish i could always be like that. but something weird happened there...(i saw a bunch of kids i haven't seen in along time which was rad) but there was some weirdass girl staring at me the whole time, she was staring so much random kids would come up to me and ask why that girl keeps staring. anyways, i didn't stick around for the next day of the fest, we drove back that night. but then the next night my lady friend erin from NJ went to the show, and some how started talking to the weirdo girl. in the process the weirdo girl said she's friends with me, said i'm fat, said my friends are super hot, and that erin shouldn't be in love with me she should like my friends because they wear tight pants and have shaggy hair. the weirdo girls name is russa and i've never talked to her in my life, who the fuck says that kind of shit? dumb. I wonder that when this dumb faggot ass oh look at me i'm wearing tight girls jeans and tight tshirts with your sweet eyeliner and lip ring is over. will these dudes look back on their old my space bathroom(because they're too embarassed to have their parents see them taking such dumb pictures of themselves in the family room)..are these kids going to be like..what the fuck was i think? maybe you should already realize you look like fucking tards...cut your hair ditch the make up and wear clothes that fit..you're not Glenn Danzig or Mike Ness. the girls that go after these kids are equally as silly. there's no unity or sense of family & equality in an mtv soaked scene like that "i just can't tolerate...all the shit i see..the kids..nowadays..dont believe in unity" Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: striking distance - march to your grave (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
2:23 pm	i'm glad i didn't crash.. but i kind of wish i would've hitler had a girlfriend Current Mood: tired Current Music: Mouthpiece - Can We Win (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
3:59 pm	vomit makes me vomit it looked better going down then it did coming up, i have a wedding to go to on saturday morning, i'm hanging out all day friday with him, its going to be fucking weirdario. sal is hot hot hot hahaaaaaaaa Current Mood: hungry Current Music: heavyweight demo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
7:25 pm	lastnight was nothing but weird dreams and sleeping for 15hrs, i showed up to the American Werewolves show late, then left before the misfits, came back to medina, for a party here, it was busted, then drove back to zunkleys for party there. everybody was super drunk, and there was some dumbass straight edge girl there. i'm so tired and sore right now, i feel like i've been hit by a car. i want to go back to sleep and dream about you Current Mood: sore Current Music: Tiger Army (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 16th, 2004
11:54 pm	revenge i've lost too much sleep i'm collecting my debt i've tried to tell myself that you're not worth my time but you talk too much shit and cross to many lines..your house burned to the ground..you're all fucked up..fucked up and knuckled down..now i can sleep at night..you'll be fucking through when we fight..your cheeks wrap around your skull..cut you so many times my blade is dull..its time for you to own up to the things you say..i'll show you no mercy i'll make you fucking pay.. Current Mood: angry Current Music: i'm on fire (Comment on this)
11:39 pm	fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you seriously fuck you and you and you and you and you i want to smash your fucking head no more jerking off i'm only going to get pissed and work out for now on i can't believe my life you ain't shit Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Barfight (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 10th, 2004
9:13 pm	keep it gangster wif da blonde hur and a diet today was my last day at work..weird, i need a job..seriously..thats not outside. i need to get away, anywhere but here, with anybody but myself, i'm my best friend and worst enemy. i'm missing somebody dinner time you fuckin nerd Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Del Tha Funkee homosapien - Catch A Bad One (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 1st, 2004
9:43 pm	today was a good day i mean cereally...work was gay as usual...then me and jared went to lunch, kid always cracks me up. got off work, played hitman: contracts..game is seriously oh so violent..jared came over. i worked out, it felt good. i did 235 6x no problem, i haven't done bench in months, so its not 265 8x but i can work back up to that, i wanna get big..then we went to the mall..everybody thought he was a browns player, it was weird..he bought Aqua De Gio and got all this free stuff with it..i bought Pride FC: cold fury..and we mos def decided kickboxing for this summer. then i bought all this body splash shit from victoria's secret and the ladies thought i was gay, and kept hitting on jared and she was from poland, i wish i got the opportunitys that kid gets with girls, but can't read the situation good enough. i'd be in bed with a hot girl from poland right now insted of sitting in my undies posting bullshit on this live journal Current Mood: good Current Music: Ignite - Embrace (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 30th, 2004
1:32 pm	"i've lost my love..so now all have is hate" "hate is what keeps me going, hate is all i have to live for, everyday i hate..its what keeps my right foot moving infront of the left" haha man i'm tired of the fuckin drama between friends, i think they should just fight. one on one. being like oh my crew is going to beat up your crew is straight up lame. like my dude Mike Judge says: "give it up" its also hard to trust somebody when they talk so much shit about their friends when their friends are not around. this summer i wanna start boxing or kickboxing, i can't wait til jared gets home, and i was totally supposed to call janessa the other night but forgot, i'm a fuckin dumbass Current Mood: calm Current Music: Reinforce - Accept Yourself (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 25th, 2004
9:25 pm	another dream this one was incredible, i was at some sort of show..then gorilla biscuits ran on the stage, but it was like everybody now, civ is all old and bald and tatted out, and it was crazy, it was in some weird ass place, kinda reminded me of Krome in jersey..then civ stopped for a second and was like "i some friends that would play to play a few songs if thats cool with you guys" then mike judge and porcelly came on stage, and i hung out with the judge afterwards, one of hte best dreams i've ever had in my life Current Mood: dreaming Current Music: judge (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 18th, 2004
9:26 pm	name that tune "i've spent sleepless nights thinking about diamond eyes..we dont know if i'm gonna make it this time, short fuse in this dead end world, its the same old story but a different boy and girl. its lights out for what could've been, its lights out i wished this would never end. i dont have the words so i'll just sit and stare, and think about a time you cared" Current Mood: busy Current Music: NAME THAT TUNE (Comment on this)
11:17 am	blood stained hands..ewwwwwwwww ...i can't believe its honestly come down to this...i get so worked up over something so trivial, i told you lastnight, i dont get pissed for nothin or nobody..i have to go to work..............................................................maybe you'll have something i'll never have. Current Mood: angry Current Music: Outburst - The Hardway (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 17th, 2004
5:38 pm	i'm going to rip those lying lips off your stupid fucking face...what a crazy fucking day Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Integrity.... (Comment on this)